In the Wind...

{a note to self; a note to remember}

Wow wow wow, what a busy season this is shaping up to be. IN EVERY ASPECT! It's not that I'm surprised it's busy, it's more that I'm surprised by my actual attempt to keep up with it all. Usually this time of year, whether things are picking up or not, you/me/ people/ students especially, are slowing down. You're tired, you feel beaten up, and you're just doing enough to pass the time until a much needed holiday break. 

But right now, I'm feeling differently than I usually would. I'm feeling all the things I wish I was feeling during the last couple months. I was feeling burnt out like frfr and just down but I was fighting against myself, studying as best I could in spite of those feelings. Now though, it's like the total opposite. Am I still anticipating this break, holding my breath for it even? Hell yea, I needs that asap... but I'm also feeling more energized, more thoughtful, more idealistic. I'm doing a lot of visualizing of the future, both near and distant goals. I'm feeling a lot more creative and full of desire. Desire for many things both professional & personal. I just feel...
AWAKE.

I'm not sure if it's because of Step preparation, the holidays, the need to make up for the storm that was the last several weeks, or just some sort of cosmic realization about myself, my dreams, my purpose. I honestly don't know. But I'm excited by the "busy" energy around me, flowing through me. I'm inspired by it. I feel like I can smell, touch, taste, hear, see the future. Not just mine but of loved ones too. And I don't mean that in a way that presumes to know the details of the paths that will lead there. This is not me saying I see everything going "according to plan". Forget the plans.

I just see things happening for the best. I see things working out, regardless of how many mistakes, changes, obstacles, do overs or whatever other unexpected happenings occur. I see me/ "us" making it... one way or another. Step is coming, Third year is coming, along with Step 2, graduation, residency, as well as friends' weddings, and babies and hardships and milestones of every kind!!!

The details...
may be in the wind,
but your hope, your purpose, your success doesn't have to be. 
Idk, that's just how I'm feeling, yet it's... more than a feeling.

*alexa play 'more than a feeling" x boston

xxO,

The Third Voice